My Friend Erick

Although I don't want to go to the reunion there are parts of my brain that would love to be there to see the show. I still live in Boston so I still see a lot of people. I would love to walk around that place and flaunt my hot husband and tell them about our fun life and cute bulldog. I'd love to tell them that I have a great job and I own a condo in Boston.

Then there is a part of me that knows when they do that moment of silence again I wont be able to handle it. Heather and I were friends but we weren't that close. She was Nancie's friend so we hung out together. I went to the funeral to pay my respects and support my friends. It was heart wrenching and awful.

A couple years later one of my good friends became very sick. He watched his mother die at her bedside and told himself he would never want to have his family and friends endure that kind of pain so he never told us he was sick. When I finally found out he still wouldn't let us come and see him. I was so upset. I wasn't sure I knew how to say goodbye without actually saying it. So I decided to write him a letter. In my letter I told him how much I loved him and how much he cared for me and my family. His laugh and smile were amazing and there wasn't a person who he wouldn't do anything for. I told him all of this. I mailed it and it got there a couple days before he died. I like to think that he read it but I'm not sure. At least his grandparents knew what a wonderful man he was if they didn't know it already.

I still cant think about Erick without getting upset. Death's like his make me really upset and get angry at God for taking them away. I never understand his plan when it comes to good people who die so young.

I'm sure dealing with death will get easier but I'm not good at it. I'm not sure anyone is. Erick was my friend and he is still missed. I'm not sure I could stand around there and talk about him without breaking down. That's reason #2 why this reunion is too close to so many memories that I don't want to think about in public.