bad mom

So I don't know if I could ever be a single mother. I don't know how they do it. I almost kill my dog on a daily basis. I cant imagine if I had a child that it would live to be older than 6 months. So far my dog has eaten a poisonous plant, cut her nail so badly she bleed for 5 hours and last night she not only picked up a dead bird and walked around with it but I found 5 nasty ticks on her. We had to operate on her last night to get them out. When I say "we" I mean I had to call my mom to come in and help me.

I'm a bad mom. Also all of this crap ONLY happens when Brett is gone and cant help. This is the third time we have called the vet for an emergency. I cant even raise a dog! I am better when there is someone around to help me. Its just tough to deal with all of this alone. Not only that but I have a dog walker. Why cant I raise a dog when I have a "dog nanny" for her. I swear Brett better be a good dad or this kid (whenever it comes) is going to be one damaged child if I am left to raise it alone.