Something has gotten me down recently. I can pin point the exact moment that my balloon popped but its been getting bigger and bigger lately so it was bound to happen. I'm in a rut. At home, at work, in life. I never thought I could be depressed but then it happened to be in December of 2006. I was in Ohio and so lonely and alone and work was awful. I cried for days and weeks. I ruined Christmas by crying non stop. It didnt help thinking about the fact that I was going to not see my husband for 4 months. It was pretty much just awful.
I don't feel like that but is still not fun. My haircut is making it worse. The more people tell me they like it the more i feel like shit. I despise my hair. I wake up and don't FEEL like myself and then I look in the mirror and I don't LOOK like myself and I'm like that for the rest of the day.
Someone help. What can I do to get out of this rut? I need a hobby or something...
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you need to get your lovin' feelin' back! screw your hair and buy extentions. or a wig. orrrrrr a purple wig. we can change your name to Jack and i know this kid who could get you a cool hobby real fast. pays too. I can't disclose his name online but it's something like Sir TrannyLot. its cool. just let me know. love ya.
Girl, you know we love you here in Cleveland (although it's evident we couldn't stop the tears when you were here).
Don't let the funk get you down.
Just think, there's a fat sistah in Ohio who feels like she's in a worse rut than you. We can eat Malley's chocolates together. That should bring us back to civilization. That or Winking Lizard wings.
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