Bad People

I have made my way through life standing up for myself. At Dairy Queen as a kid if some adult cut me in line I made sure I told him what was up. I am short so I always make myself known so i dont get screwed over.

When I worked at my dad's bar there were all sorts of people who would do or say things just to get a rise out of my dad. Well my dad knew better - they were only going to get a rise out of me. One day this kid decided that he'd grab my ass but said he was trying to get my beer opener out of my back pocket. I quickly grabbed his arm and in some sort of fluke martial arts move I pinned him to the bar. After that my dad always said that "Jaci could take care of herself" or "Im not the one that you should be afraid of". At the office I'm still the one to be afraid of. I'll stand up for my self, my people and my clients.

Thats why what happened this past week is still just so crazy. I had someone that I thought I could trust essentially steal thousands of dollars from me. I'm not going to go into specifics but its bad.

I didnt think I could be manipulated and I didnt think that someone could rip me off like that. I guess even though I am pretty self aware of the world I just didnt think that people were THAT bad. But they are... people are awful.

This whole situation will most likely change me for life. It will hopefully make me smarter but will also make me trust less or sometimes not at all. I just keep going over the situation in my head. Over and over again. What did I do wrong? What could I have done? Does my husband trust me anymore to handle things? Do I trust myself to handle things? How did I let someone manipulate me like that? How did I let this happen?

Its a long way from cutting a child in line at Dairy Queen but bad people are still out there. This whole thing has just made me that much more aware of whats going on.